Hard not to be bitter

Some days it is really hard not to be bitter about your current situation. For me that is my main problem this morning.

 I'm very bitter about my current situation at work.  I finally got an office last night- for which I should be very grateful- but that's hard when it was supposed to be my office in May and someone who had been here much shorter than me took it while I was away on a work trip.  My boss let that person get away with it, since the person was the only other male manager.

 I really do like my job, but I like it a lot better when everything works out.  I'm having a hard time dealing with last minute stuff falling off the books or being trialed and me finding out about it on Wednesday night so there goes most of my check.  I need to pay my bills and I know that both of my bosses were in this situation once too.  I don't want to be in this situation anymore.  I am trying my damndest to be positive and sunny and cheery, but that's hard when I'm working 60+ hour weeks and not making any money.  Also I wasn't able to take a day off this weekend to spend time with my future father in law while he was in town.  Man did that steam me!  He drove from Colorado to spend time with me and his son and I got to spend maybe 20 hours with him. That's terrible.  I spent 90% of the time he was here working.  It's not fair when both my bosses took off last weekend and I handled doing their jobs but I couldn't take one day off to be with a family member. It's making it very hard to be grateful or even happy to be in the office and tell someone else that they want to make this a career. 

My future father in law left the same time I did this morning to go back to Ohio.  He took Gabby with him and it about broke my heart. She is such a sweetie.  I know she's going to a great life but it's still hard to say goodbye to both of them.

Today is going to be a rough day, I know that already.  Bitterness builds and makes everything tainted and I have to let it go.  I need to be grateful that I have a job and we are breaking even each month. We may not have a lot of money in the bank right now, but we will.  Most people start out scraping by when they start a new career in which they have no experience.  Time to make the best of today and show my trainees how great this career is- no matter how I currently feel about it.


So here is what is going to be good today: I get my guy back.  I have time in between work to take a nap. I finally got an office. I leave you with these adorable pictures of napping love.