Personal Happiness Project

So much of my life right now, involves school. Adding up how much work I put in last week for my classes, not counting time I was actually in class- over 30 hours.  Oh and I’m in class 15 hours a week. So I have a full time job- it’s called graduate school.

Being in graduate school is equivalent to treading water constantly.  You can’t always tread the water and sometimes you sink a little, but you kick back to the surface and breathe again.  This is how I’ve been feeling since starting graduate school two weeks ago. 

            So today I am starting my personal happiness project.  It is time to be thankful for the things I have and to make myself happy.   I am a surprisingly easy person to make happy.  Showering makes me happy. Making food, makes me happy. So, you ask, if everything makes you happy, aren’t you happy?  And the truth is, no. 

            I’ve been living with my boyfriend for over four months and now we are separated by school and soon to be even larger amounts of distance.  He lives in Cleveland, Ohio and I live in Knoxville, Tennessee.  Later today he will leave to go visit his brother in Seattle for three weeks.  So instead of a little over eight hours of distance by car, it will be- I don’t even want to think about how far away that is. We’ve both done long distance before, but not like this.  Not when so much of our being is tied to someone else. 

             It’s not easy being in a long distance relationship.  You become very good friends and occasional lovers.  So much of your relationship revolves around how supportive you can be of the other person from great distances and then be able to rekindle the flames when you are lucky enough to be together.

            So while school keeps my mind busy and I try not to think about how much I miss him, I need to think of other things that make me happy.  I have to be independently happy again.  

      Starting on Monday, I'm going to do a post about something that makes me happy. 

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